I’m Ok. Just hibernating …and trying hard not to dissolve into some miasmic sludge while curled up in a fetal position in a dark corner. Instead, sustaining myself with this thought that came my way today… and, no, I am not being dramatic.
“Fortunately, some are born with spiritual immune systems that sooner or later give rejection to the illusory worldview grafted upon them from birth through social conditioning. They begin sensing that something is amiss, and start looking for answers.
Inner knowledge and anomalous outer experiences show them a side of reality others are oblivious to, and so begins their journey of awakening.
Each step of the Joumey is made by following the heart Instead of following the crowd and by choosing knowledge over the veils of ignorance.”
– “On Intuition vs. Intellect” by Henri Bergson, 1907.
[Note to self: Must find and read that book sometime]
[Note to readers (and it was not my intention to say any of this – I just want to curl up in my dark corner again for the rest of the day): Read the Bergson quote again. Please. Do not follow my lead along a path of awakening, unless you are drawn to it. It can be a lonely existence, filled with ostracization and frustration. Are you seeking answers to questions that others around you or in general do not ask, and are unlikely to have answers to? Are you unsatisfied with the incompleteness or extent of your inner or outer worldview? Then these are the kind of ‘drawing forces’ which could be inviting you to initiate your own personal path to awakening. You need a strong drive and compelling reason (both of which will gain in strength over time) to sustain your early efforts, otherwise you are unlikely to make it and will simply drop back into the crowd again. Don’t worry, I have nothing to sell you. And you should resist others who try to do so. You will come to recognize true help when it presents itself and become acutely aware – perhaps through errors of judgement (there will be those) – of those who would seek to trick or entrap you in dead-end schemes. And if you fall for some reason, pick yourself up again, using the experience as impetus to move forward. I am sure this journey can be restarted many times if you have begun it before and perhaps when you were not completely ready (all of us who do so, come at it from different starting points and follow different paths). So if you do undertake this journey, do so under your own guidance, and allow opportunities (perhaps this is one such) and relevant sources of knowledge to come your way, as and when they will. Be guided by your own intuition, not someone else’s. Discern for yourself what is right and what is wrong. And be patient, absorbing those things which help, discarding those which don’t. This is a lifetime’s journey, Who knows where it will lead?]
If I had a fever I would say I have COVID. But I haven’t and so I don’t. I will be back …when I am ready. I do not make health predictions. In my case there is far too little data to go on.
Not Something Else 
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